I Want to Die, But I Am Immortal Novel

Adam's ordinary life as a high school student crumbles when his parents disappear. Though police declare it a double suicide, Adam knows the truth lies elsewhere. His investigation into their deaths pulls him into a dangerous conspiracy, where corrupt officers torture and murder him—but not before revealing his parents suffered the same fate at the hands of an untouchable power.

Death isn't the end. Adam awakens with a System and the ability to Return by Death, forcing him to relive his final days in an endless loop. When he seeks help from a trusted teacher, betrayal and death follow. He discovers the horrifying reason: a $100 million bounty marks him as prey, making every person around him a potential killer.

The endless cycle of dying transforms Adam. The sad, ordinary boy dissolves into someone cold and merciless. He becomes a ruthless survivor who kills without hesitation at the slightest suspicion, driven only by a hunger to escape this deadly game and avenge his parents.

In one loop, Adam saves a female classmate from bullies in a moment of detached intervention, then forgets her entirely. But for the girl, this act of salvation ignites an all-consuming devotion. Loop after loop, she sacrifices herself to protect him, dying repeatedly in his place—a recurring tragedy that deepens his descent.

Adam battles not just a vast conspiracy but also the agonizing cycle of watching an innocent person perish for him. Trapped between survival and revenge, he becomes a hardened killer stripped of humanity, haunted by the deaths of those closest to him.